I hope you don't mind
I deleted the app
Where you repeatedly reached for me
Eons away.

I sobbed loudly as the colorful wall
Flew right past me.

But its true
I'm back in the states now
And I wish you nothing but comfort
But I can't hang on to past moments.

You drink German beer
Have a cigarette or four
Leave me voice recordings of the same old
Cheesy song
Talking in your car
In broken English
Saying what most women
Or girls
Would want to hear.

I remember sitting on the couch
You, now you took photos of everything
I might have countered my match in that way
Posing in that awkward fashion
Because we had only just met
But it was all such a sensory experience
Feeding me into the Vienna skyline.

Your kisses were soft and strong
The way older men do
My kind of favorite fleeting kisses.

You laid me down
And gave yourself so quickly
As you were won't to do.

Palm trees surround me now
I sent a photo of my ******* to an ex
Because I hoped it would entice him into visiting me
In our old stomping grounds
Where we opened and closed our hearts
Into the Philadelphia city streets.

But as I arrived in Palm Beach
I wasn't sure anymore how much I cared
I'm still not sure
A large part of me just wants something
Entirely new
And a real friendship first.

We'll see
We'll see rabbit
A phrase my mama always used to say
That really meant
Probably not.

But maybe not, probably not.
The water is a clear blue
I'm the first to want to make moves it seems
My youth glowing
Prospering
On my own time.