I hate it when I dream of you
I hate it when I care
I hate it when you touch  me
And
when you play with my hair

I hate that I can’t forget you
Or when I can’t sleep
Because then I’m trapped with the thoughts of what we could be

I hate it when you text me like everything’s ok
I hate it when I reply
Even if it’s just a simple “hey”

I hate that you got me hooked
and then went away

I hate that I can’t erase when we met
If only I could skip that stupid day

I hate that I can’t hate you
No matter what I say
No matter how I depict you
You’ll always be so great

You’ll always make me smile
Even after you make me cry
You’ll always be my knight
Even if there’s no trouble by

But I’ll never be your princess
And I guess that’s just life

So I’ll keep telling myself I hate you
And hope that I’ll be alright


_mya 1/18/18__