I hate you because I love you so with a love that's real and lasting. I'm left with that; the best and the worst of it. In the quiet now, every laugh we shared, everything I thought was real howls thru my hollow soul and in the echoes I hear "fool". My heart screams out in agony. Suffocating, I gasp but the air is empty. There's a hole where you came and went where there once was a door I opened for you. You did not pass through my life; you passed through me. I am not okay. It does not get better and someone else will not do; he isn't you.