I will never have a gf named Hannah;
she's too pure for me---
I will nver have a gf named Mary;
it would give me nightmares---
I will never have a gf named Susan;
she's ugly (who am I to talk, see, that's why...)
I will never have a gf named Kate;
'C' or 'K', see---
I will never have a gf named Martha;
childhood fantasies would ruin it---ah, Martha...
I will never have a gf named Adrian;
'Rocky', white supremacist mythos, yech---
If I ever have a gf I will not know her name;
never see her face or hear her voice---
she will be silent as the ancient glades
where I have never walked;
silent as the cement that surrounds me &
cheap wood creaking,
creeping things crawling;
I will never have a gf, so I tell God---
what do u think God says?
He's a ******* who contradicts me;
I will never have a gf,
so I tell God---he tells me, 'be careful what u wish for'
& I say, is that all u got?
I can't wait---
I am an atheist, master of nothingness;
yet God intrudes
like he's standing right there; there(X)
how would u feel telling ur father
u ****** ur mother---that's how
this feels---I will never have a gf, I tell God
& in his infinite mercy
he kind of tells me to go **** myself &
I kind of do; not in bad way (Jesus provides)