“You Look So Happy”
happy you say?
you don’t see the cut
i use to pay
the smile that i shut
you don’t see my pain
when i hide away
i choose to abstain
yet i cry anyway
you don’t see the drunken smile
but that, i cannot hide that i am upsot
is this worth your while?
“What?”
what you murmured
you don’t understand it
understand my cravings
cravings for pain
pain that’s too deep
you don’t understand my tears
tears over her
her who broke me
me, the once whole human
you don’t understand my heart
my heart that’s broken
broken, shattered, not pumping
pumping the blood i need to live
“Oh”
you understand
ugly understanding now i’m gone
absent abuse now i’m a ghost
vanished violation now i disappeared
all gone, now that i’m gone