fragility
one of my worst curses, i have grown irrational when thinking up ways to be strong... it’s no longer being strong at this point it’s avoiding feeling broken. it’s leaving every thought of how bad you’ve gotten behind. it’s getting so ****** up that you can no longer feel the pain that is hindered... it’s waiting for that moment of pure breaking, when everything comes crashing down upon you... it is squeezing the air from your sternum and flattening your heart while at it.
But...
it’s okay to feel fragile every now and then, knowing that at any point in time you could snap and either clear a whole city block or finish yourself off... and while it’s hard to come to terms with the darkness brewing deep beneath the surface it will remain there under the thin glass like skin that you’ve dreamt about cracking open but feared the outcome of it all... some people will never understand why you think the way you do but it is in you to build your skin thicker every day and letting the minor things just fall like a scraped knee easy to heal. So build yourself but keep that fragility for your own well being because we all need that balance.