You know what!
at times
I envy the people who don't have strong deep feelings racing around their heart 24/7 !

you know why?!?!

cause it feel like a curse.

it feels exhausting caring about so much all the time
feeling so many emotions in one day,
that you start to go numb.

I envy you people who are able to have a quiet mind.
Who are able to silence all the racing thoughts.
Who aren't able to feel all the possible crazy emotions.

At times I Envy you people.
Because then you are able to get a good nights rest
and are able to get out of bed happy in the morning.

Because, you people don't tend to ball your eyes out
when trying to drive home.
You people don't cry about all your worries, fears, and frustrations,
or when you hear a song or a certain set of chords that make tears roll down you face.

I Envy you!
Because at times,
I feel cursed,
I feel broken, lost, and stuck in these emotions.

But then there are the times,
were this curse of mine,
feels like a blessing.

Because, when I my heart feels all the different shades of the color; happy.
I feel weightless, infinite, lively.
so alive, my heart feels like its sparkling through my eyes.
like I'm on cloud nine.

And this is when my curse of emotions
feels like a blessing

b.v.r