i grew up thinking of you as a ghost,
you were always there, yet you weren't.
you haunted me in the night when i missed you the most.
and in the day you turned into a shadow lurking about,
only twice did you actually show yourself.
you told me you would stop haunting me and just be there for me.
that you would stop being a shadow that followed me
and you would turn into a leader.
but then you told me it was too much.
i wasn't doing enough to keep you in the light.
you told me the light hurt.
you disappeared back into the shadows.
but you took something of mine when you left.
you took away some of my light and destroyed it.
then i became less light, less human
and more of a ghostly shadow.