It was all a blur,
the fogy nights we spent together.
The numerous stares, everything that led to one of us, me, so much pain.

It all started because two souls were lonely and one was broken.

The other was alive and caring.

The first night was magical. Not like in the movies but how you would imagine it in real life.
Where nothing was perfectly perfect but it was perfect.

The drive back the first night made me only realize how fallen in love with you.

Maybe I was stupid,
I was.

I no longer will love. You left me numb.
When I wake up next to another guy numb is all I feel, all I’ve felt since you left.
You left me.

All of it is a blur, the way I felt, the things we did, the way I feel.

But today, I will focus on the fact that I am alone. That I will always be alone.
Today I will focus on that.