Perhaps the gate I open now
would either release me
from the plunge into hollowness,
a gut-wrenching piercing,
endless,
or it would feed me more,
more to let into my veins
and collapse,
never to wake up.

Your cry that gave me
a second's hope that
you might breathe fresher air...
It lied to me.
Now it is a blame
that I place on myself
and it has manifested
as a deep wound.
Oh Love, it keeps digging in me.

You are braver than all of mankind,
you showed them
that you do not fear anything.
But it always comes running to my head,
why did it take you away and not me?

Wherever you are,
my little bundle of happiness,
keep the others full of life,
just like the first time I held you,
your howls that have sewn themselves
in my heart.