Every breathing moment you spend of your life they are in the back of your mind, and they will always be there, because you can never forget. You will never forget the love you felt, you will never forget the pain you had when they left, and you will never, ever, forget the feeling of having to let them go because they weren't yours to hold, and it was the hardest thing you've ever had to do. You'll hear them talk about other people and you will physically be able to hear your heart break into a million pieces. Eventually you won't want to pick those pieces up just for them to be broken all over again. So you stay broken, and the only person who can fix you is the one who left you far beyond damaged, so far beyond the point where you don't want to be fixed. Every part of you is left wishing and hoping that in some crazy way god has a plan to bring you and this person together finally, or once more. You see your best self in this person. You're happier with this person, you smile brighter with this person, you laugh a little louder with this person. You physically give them your heart and soul, and most, without even knowing it, destroy both, leaving it as dust for the wind. You want to be this persons happiness and to except the fact that you aren't is hard for you to bare. You crave this person. They drive you absolutely insane. Despite the love you have for them you're required to sit on the sidelines and watch them love someone else. Still all you want for them is happiness even if it's not because of you. You know you will never have this person and it kills you because life isn't a fairy tale, and not everyone gets a happy ending, but, they will, you know they will because they deserve nothing less. Everything reminds you of them in some way, you can't forget them because there are to many reminders, to many memories. Anything can take you back, make you remember, and bring you to tears.  Absolutely anything.