Dec 2017
I don't know how to feel some times
It's like your trapped between 2 choices. Me and her. You love me but your minds on her some times. And when your mad or upset you don't think of the things you say you just think that nobody actually gives a ahit. I wish you could see everything that Roman didn't destroy I gave you. You have my everything. My life is in your hands you fall I fall. You have problem s going on I get it.
My family dose drugs my sister was in jail on my 18th birthday for being involves with the her I on epademic. I get bullyed everyday on social media. I get told to shut the **** up. Or that I'm stupid or my ma tell me ******* every single day. I feel fat and ugly everyday. I hate that I have a stomach I hate that I where glasses I hate me. I taught my self how to be alone. I delt with my dad ****** my sister my step dad beating my sisters(there bio dad) for talking to me. Watched my mom get beat. I watch my mom get taken from me watched my dad get taken from me... I tired to **** my self and had to lie about so I didn't get sent away so I could try again. I used to sleep on a couch in the living room. I was almost ***** when I was 8 again when I was 13 and I was ***** when I was 16 a sphmore in highschool. Fell for a cheating *** whole cause I craved love and ***.... I draw to get ride of the pain. I lost a son when I was 14. While my best friend that was pregnant with hers got to keep them. I gave you my everything after that 1St date which is why I never told him that I loved him after that day. Cause I relized eventually that I don't love him. I don't. I love you. I see a future. I see us having a place of our own. I see us getting married and me being yours forever I see us traveling. I see me and you. Baby I gave you my soul.... I love you. And will always love you. I get that your going threw hell. I get your scared of love. I am too. But babe we gotta learn to husle together. Be together and how to help each other. Babe please know that I do love you. Please know I love you for who you are. I want to be an us. Your my strangthe. With out you I don't have my heart.
It's like your trapped between 2 choices. Me and her. You love me but your minds on her some times. And when your mad or upset you don't think of the things you say you just think that nobody actually gives a ahit. I wish you could see everything that Roman didn't destroy I gave you. You have my everything. My life is in your hands you fall I fall. You have problem s going on I get it.
My family dose drugs my sister was in jail on my 18th birthday for being involves with the her I on epademic. I get bullyed everyday on social media. I get told to shut the **** up. Or that I'm stupid or my ma tell me ******* every single day. I feel fat and ugly everyday. I hate that I have a stomach I hate that I where glasses I hate me. I taught my self how to be alone. I delt with my dad ****** my sister my step dad beating my sisters(there bio dad) for talking to me. Watched my mom get beat. I watch my mom get taken from me watched my dad get taken from me... I tired to **** my self and had to lie about so I didn't get sent away so I could try again. I used to sleep on a couch in the living room. I was almost ***** when I was 8 again when I was 13 and I was ***** when I was 16 a sphmore in highschool. Fell for a cheating *** whole cause I craved love and ***.... I draw to get ride of the pain. I lost a son when I was 14. While my best friend that was pregnant with hers got to keep them. I gave you my everything after that 1St date which is why I never told him that I loved him after that day. Cause I relized eventually that I don't love him. I don't. I love you. I see a future. I see us having a place of our own. I see us getting married and me being yours forever I see us traveling. I see me and you. Baby I gave you my soul.... I love you. And will always love you. I get that your going threw hell. I get your scared of love. I am too. But babe we gotta learn to husle together. Be together and how to help each other. Babe please know that I do love you. Please know I love you for who you are. I want to be an us. Your my strangthe. With out you I don't have my heart.
