Let's think about this, before we do it. Let's think about this. Let's do it.
You can tell me I've failed. My lungs are hot. My breath is useless, like my rescue.
If you close a door, I open a wound. I made plans to steal you from yourself. I wanted sunlight for you, roots and crawling ants, pyramids of help and hope.
I wanted. I wanted them to be mine, my contribution. Well. The self wants a shadow. A shield. A soul. The -I- falls apart when the skin does.
There was a moment when you became who you always were: alone, surviving against a sea of black, and I could not help you. Could not swim against the dark surf your arms themselves made.
And how am I now to make you some craft to come home on. How am I now to give knots and knowledge to your drowning. I cannot brave the isles that break you from the strings of sand that wait beyond the waves dying, still, to give you home and breath.
I want your bedding. Your body. I want your terrible soul, your bait and switch, your milk, your cave, the meat of your isolation, the heart you hid in the Pacific.
All I ever find at sea: tired arms, a head full of wishes. (Not exactly buoyant.) And the flashing fins of fish who sank and died.