You will not win

Day by day, minute by minute.
I gaze into the hourglass of life.
Peeking back at me are my fears.
It takes all my strength to hold back my tears.
All I've lost and all I've gained in this life of chess.
I set and ponder and I could really care less.
One day my pain, my fears, my constant life of doubt will be gone.
As I gaze into the pain I call life. I ask my inner demon to get the knife.
I cut to release the pain and let it pour out like rain.
One day my pain will be gone. One day I will fear no more, one day the screams will stop.. I set and I ponder ending my life. But I hold on cause doing that means they win.
Screams of pain in my head,I would love to end. But keep screaming that madness my friend because in the end you will not win..