What is your value?
What motivates you?
Do you not have a clue?
I was in that position too

I lost myself
In the desires of impulsiveness
Putting my dignity at the back of a shelf
Allowing my heart to explore a primitive wilderness

I wanted it
I was okay with any outcome
I needed it
It'd have only been some

I began to make my first step
To fulfill my temptations
The most important thing I've kept
Was lost in a place better not to mention

The ups and downs of it all
was diving my mind to the pit of the insane
My self security became three inches tall
The situation had provided no gain

I hadn't ever felt this affliction
Not even my patterned past
Could compare to the confused affection
Every moment I had felt like a task

That's when everything ended
Five months later I was still in pain
I had decided to put a complete end
To every access of the memories stained

I now need my time to  heal
to learn self-respect, self-love, and control
I wish there was a backspace for how I feel
This no contact is taking it's toll

I dont expect it to break from the other side
My drug doesn't need me
I couldv'e drowned in all the tears cried
I am young, dumb, and have chosen to let the past be