I told you that I loved you, you said the same.
I told you that I didn’t want to lose you, again you said the same.
But why, why did you walk away as if nothing happened?
Leave me as if I was nothing?
Again and again, I keep telling you that I’m here.
Waiting for you, crying.
I’m not ashamed, I’m keeping my promise.
I am still loving you, still wanting to be held.
Feel safe in your arms.
But I’m not, my grip on reality is slipping.
I feel no safety, no comfort only pain and sorrow.
Why, why did you leave me, why didn’t you fight for me?
To think that you never really loved me, you never wanted to help or stay?
You lied, you lied and deceived.
So why?
Why would you lie if you never loved me, never care or worried?
Why would you stay?
Why?
Why leave me to slowly drown in my own tears?
These tears that were meant for you.
I’m not ashamed of myself, I'm disgusted.
I’m disgusted with myself, for crying every night for you.
Wondering if I did something wrong?
If I didn’t look the way you wanted?
Would it be enough if I changed, to grab your attention?
Why, why didn’t you fight with me to keep me.
Why?