It pains me so
Never having been so down
the ache, the everlasting pain
kept the pursuing frown

To not have what the heart desire
or to be with who the heart demands
as in betrayal it calls me a liar
for not following it but instead my head

Rash decisions
Bold and incorrect actions
that for now ever shall haunt me
as I  lay down in despair reactions

Too many unknowns
No answers untold
Only stray me further
from the depth of what is needed

The path I have took
is not the one to lead
(or the one to take!)
as I now walk alone

I look the fool,
as the crisis unfold
And the truth reveal
To only ****** that which is left of me

I cry myself to sleep
As I lay curled in my sheets
All that but I can do is weep
for this mistake has no end!

Look towards the light
and remember what is right
for the shame  may remain
but all I can do is try another day