When I am awake I view the world with eyes half open; blinded by tension I can see
Thicker than a knife could penetrate
I suffocate in the make believe fumes that can be ignited by the smallest spark
Only to blow up in my face
This hollow feeling
This empty space
I can feel how thick the wall is around your back when it faces me at night
I speak to you when I know you cannot hear me
Loathing myself; my grudge spoils in my hesitation as I reach out and hold you tight
And I know I Have lost
This endless battle I have all the power in the world to conclude
I'm a prisoner to the dull ache
All I ever wanted was you