Stop.
You can't love me because you're lonely/
Or because  you're bored/
Or because  I am the only person who doesn't **** you off/

I want to **** you off/
I want to get on your ******* nerves/
I don't want the responisibility of/
always being your rock/

I  will try/
But I'm a mess too/
I lie, I sleep too much/
and i feel unworthy of love most of the time/

Truthfully/

I'm terrified of the idea of having kids/
because I'm selfish/
and mothers can't be selfish/
once they decide to carry another life/

I am always looking for the rain to come/
so i can trip over my own feet/
I know exactly how/
the air smells before a storm/

Before you fall in love with me/
I want you to know/

I cry a lot/
because it feels good/
I ******* at least 4 times per week/
and you might fall out of love with me before/
either of us are ready for it/

I have no experience with this.

I'm trying to be brave/
and smart/
but it's almost impossible to be both/
at the same time/

You can't love me like a fire escape/

Sometimes i will be the match/
or the smoke/

i don't know what I'm doing/
all i know is that/
we catch fire sometimes/
before we get warm/

Before you fall in love with me/
I want you to know/

That there is a 50% chance that/
this won't work/
that one of us will end up/
hating the other/

I will try/
to keep your head above the water/
but sometimes/
I will need help too/

I can't be your savior/
And/
I don't expect you to be mine/

Just watch me unfold/
and/
i'll watch you unfold too/

we'll get drunk/
and/
tell each other/
everything/

I know that's cheating but maybe it'll be alright.

Maybe we won't wake up embarressed.

I am going to fall in love with you/
too/
feet first/

Maybe we'll slow dance off a building/
together/
maybe we'll have forgotten each others names by/
this time next year/

I don't care/

the sky is grey with or without you/

so im not going to look up anymore/
im going to look ahead.