you said " go do whatever it is you want to do. don't let anyone hold you back or tell you that you can't do something. Don't let anyone stop you and don't let anyone make you feel guilty this time."

"okay." I said with a gentle smile.

that night I bought a ticket to England. It was the first place we met, remember? I went to the bridge, the same one I was at the first time I ever saw you, remember? I smiled at you and you walked over to me and introduced yourself. don't you remember? that was five years ago today.

I walked to one side to look over the brick wall at the rushing water below, the same way I did that day we met. I stood there and thought about all of the 3am conversations, all the laughs, all the smiles, and the way I practically fell for you overnight. I thought about all the times you reminded me that you'd love me forever and you'd be here till the end.

and i jumped.