Do you ever wish to put so much energy into something worthwhile only to be shot down before you can prove yourself?

A chance at love,
to prove your worth,
to show them how much you care,
how much time and energy you are willing to contribute,

All the cards on the table to move forward,
simply rejected since there is already love,
too bad it is for someone else,

Now, all this energy has nowhere to go,
fighting for a place in the world but no one to receive it,
fighting to come out and show someone special you will put your all into something real,

This energy turns into sadness and anger,
why isn't it enough,
what did it do to earn this rejection,

I want you in my life but I can't watch you love another,
I am not strong enough,
this energy is no longer pushing me forward to show you my pure intentions,
but pulling me back toward the abyss of loneliness and frustration.
My only flaw is not being her.