I’m sweating,
Regretting,
Breath is unsteady.

Nervous,
Worried,
Thoughts in a scurry.

But you’re ready,
You’ve prepared.
These thoughts
Need to be shared.

Pacing,
Back and forth.
Like wine,
Pop the cork.

I can’t do this,
I can’t do this,
Says fear in my ear.
You’re but a little girl
A scared little deer.

Shut up!
Don’t say that!
Say what?
That!

I’m ok
No you’re not
Yes I am
No you’re not.

Pacing and pacing,
Heart consistently racing.

Nerves
Fear
Worry
Doubt.

Frustration
Opportunity,
Trying to get out.

I walk into the restroom
And take a good look at you.
You’ve got this,
You’re a warrior,
Ready to strike .

But then fear grabs a hold of me
And wraps me in tight.

You can’t do this
You’re crazy
They’ll never say yes.
Oh you think that you’re confident
Because you bought that new dress.

You’re a fraud
A fake
A sheep in disguise.
You hide behind those fancy clothes
Covered in lies.

Shut up!
You’ve got this,
Grab hold of your strength.
Keep your confidence high
To a limitless length.

Now push your shoulders back
And lift your head high
Place one foot in front of the other
And let’s give this a try.

I leave the restroom
With my heels hitting the floor
I make a left turn
And knock on my bosses door.

“Did you have a moment to talk,
About my position?
I have a suggestion
If you have the time to listen”.

I swallow down my fear
As my boss motions me to sit
I close the door,
“This is it”!