The ones I lost, the ones that stayed The ones that I took and left The ones I misunderstood without regret.
It was.
It just was.
And I can't say I don't regret it. Because it aches still, when I revisit.
I know the words now but I didn't then. How did I know I should have asked for help?
And this is ****** poetry and I lie to save myself But for the love of God I was so young then.
I was bad, bad, bad. I was anger and wrath and pain I was solitude and couches I didn't leave And I was not taking showers and sleeping All hours, all day, all week.
I was emptiness and grand plans And empty promises and broken oaths
I missed you more than you have ever known. I miss you still.