I walked it to keep me from walking back into the slaughterhouse
read renewed obit daily spattered on asphyxiating pulmonary walls when you moved on in an attempt to replace our magical rarity
maybe it was for the exact same reason you put the gun in your lonely mouth
preferring suicide to waiting for unsuspecting heart to get massacred
again
choosing instead to stroll hollow self-made planks with egoic illusions of control
I won’t
walk it again I’m stronger now
though it will hurt if you repeat the bore boring stale pattern into open skull
starting to flower
it will be no surprise
and I know I will be OK this time
look I know I terrify you
quake your bones at thought of home foreclosed U-Hauled, stooped alone affront cold locked door
too bad there’s no one else who understands what that’s like who’d hold your hand and dive inside your diverting fractured ice in melt saying silently, as I turn to pools