sometimes i think i am going crazy
when i’m having a conversation the words always seem a little hazy
their voices, phrases start to fade and jumble
and even when i walk my limbs feel like they want to fumble
and fall and i have a fear of it all
do i act like its nothing and continue to stall
or should i speak up and get some help
but if i talk i feel like my lips start to melt
i smoke, drink, or cry to get rid of all these feelings
but harming myself more wont heal me
i built a world inside of my head where everything is perfect
so perfect that when it came to reality i began to neglect
what was really happening inside of my head
all of my fears, needs, and desires were beginning to be misread
i became so immersed in my pain
i didn’t realize that chemical imbalance in my brain
slowly started to deteriorate my mental health
where i felt getting what i wanted will always be my only form of wealth
i crave what i lack
but i mostly crave the emotions i can’t bring back
i live in the past and fear the present
walking through people i always start to resent
i am afraid, i am afraid, i am afraid
of myself and the harm that i am causing
to my heart and i am sorry
but it takes time to stitch your own wounds
and i hope i get to see another full moon.