We sat around a fire As the mermaids heads glowed Hearing stories of deep nostalgia While mama whimpered for a time That bares no repeating Because though we can repeat the past We can't go back in time To who or what we once were.
It is painful to think on this In a way where I could write it into words So there is a certain kind of quiet clenching I can feel myself doing In order to try and get some of it out But with self preservation.
I'm going to Austria I've marked dates I've made plans I got some rest at long last I'll never forget the image of my father crying Or my mother throwing glass As I stood between them And where I thought we were.
A metaphorical picket fence It's surrounded me throughout all of my girlhood Sometimes I think I'm just a young idiot Scrapping by With a mighty wind Like I think I'm so special But I know there is a deep kindness And humility within me I take refuge in that.
Running around outside As the sun shone down Its all so hard to process right now I just want to be okay I want everyone to be more than okay.