its nights like these when i wonder with all my being,
if i will ever be able to rid my mind, my heart of you.
though most days i get through as easily as before,
but just like before i slip back into your unknown grip.
i dont want you anymore.
i try so hard to believe that you are better with her.
if it were ever possible to live a lie completely id choose that.
people say they understand how i feel but in reality
no one knows how i feel.
i dont want to want you anymore.
i refuse to continue this lifestyle.
loving someone that is loving someone else.
its okay though...
i understand...