its nights like these when i wonder with all my being,
if i will ever be able to rid my mind, my heart of you.

though most days i get through as easily as before,
but just like before i slip back into your unknown grip.

i dont want you anymore.

i try so hard to believe that you are better with her.
if it were ever possible to live a lie completely id choose that.

people say they understand how i feel but in reality
no one knows how i feel.

i dont want to want you anymore.

i refuse to continue this lifestyle.
loving someone that is loving someone else.

its okay though...
i understand...