i dreamed i smoked a cigarrette felt its silky breath glide down my insides calming and resolving what felt unsettled as i walked with midnight, my solitary companion, down a deep blue lit street
can i even describe the purity that silky white substance introduced at the bottom of my belly how clean and calm it felt--almost sweet yet mixed with guilt and fear of addiction and everything i had been told and knew it was nothing like i knew a cigarette to be
what was it i dreamed up a cigarette to calm what is it that stirs in me, unsettled that i can't seem to resolve what am i not finding in my waking hours that i needed to escape to my dreams to resolve, what in me craves to taste the smoke that i've never waking let inside my lungs