I sometimes
don't wanna
exist
because why bother
waking up
in screaming
darkness
that makes me afraid
of heading to school
to feel all of the penetrating
sounds fall silent
Crusted sidewalks
with broken bottles
and ripped up
letters of empty
promises from family
members who never
show up
Empty stomachs
stained clothes
and a school system
who cares a little less
each day
But then there's
that one who makes the
day go from
dragging to
floating on cottony
childlike dreams
Whether it be
a parent
Or that sweetie
that turns your
cheeks red
I look forward to
that person
everyday
Once my eyes
flutter open
and the sun
spills its honey
milk rays
I think of
my sunflower
warm sweet
and undying
in my eyes