Nov 2017
I watched u cry today
My heart bled for ur pain
Not of this body, but still my oldest son.
He left us, my boy. Selfishly he left us.
You promised you'd never do the same
I believe you.
So many of us sobbed in today, my eyes barely left your face. A memorial for a supposedly healthy, happy 17 year old should never happen.
I held u afterward, your bloodshot eyes telling a soulful tale.
This aunt who calls you her Sunshine wanted to wash away your pain.
All I could do was wrap u in my arms and say "I love you my boy."
That fateful day this January, your cousin did the only selfish, hurtful thing he'd ever done in his 17 years with us.
His was the only smile that came close to yours, he may not have been my Sunshine, but he sparkled like every star in the night sky.
We all loved him my boy, we all still do.
But you are my Sunshine, your light gives warmth to all our lives.
I know your strength is deep and strong, hold onto it and all the love around you in this turbulent sea.
Shine brightly, young son so he can see you from heaven and smile with joy.
Rest in peace Mekellan, my son misses you.
My heart bled for ur pain
Not of this body, but still my oldest son.
He left us, my boy. Selfishly he left us.
You promised you'd never do the same
I believe you.
So many of us sobbed in today, my eyes barely left your face. A memorial for a supposedly healthy, happy 17 year old should never happen.
I held u afterward, your bloodshot eyes telling a soulful tale.
This aunt who calls you her Sunshine wanted to wash away your pain.
All I could do was wrap u in my arms and say "I love you my boy."
That fateful day this January, your cousin did the only selfish, hurtful thing he'd ever done in his 17 years with us.
His was the only smile that came close to yours, he may not have been my Sunshine, but he sparkled like every star in the night sky.
We all loved him my boy, we all still do.
But you are my Sunshine, your light gives warmth to all our lives.
I know your strength is deep and strong, hold onto it and all the love around you in this turbulent sea.
Shine brightly, young son so he can see you from heaven and smile with joy.
Rest in peace Mekellan, my son misses you.
Mekellan hanged himself in Jan. No one knows why. He sat with his parents at breakfast, laughing as always. 30 min later, he was dead, his dad discovered him hanging in the garage. His memorial was today. My nephew idolized him. He was a beautiful soul, his friends and girlfriend still visit his grave every week. This was a child in a million. Why he did this we'll never know, we are angry and sad. My boy's pain is unfathomable. I'm infertile, my nephew is my son. I held his hand all thru the funeral in Jan. Today I watched his tears flow, my son is transitioning into a man. But he'll always be my Sunshine and Mekellan will always be in every shining star.
