she's six-foot, two inches tall
and blonde in a see-through-gloves kinda way
she's oddly shaped - okay, she's THIN
but she's really oddly shaped and don't argue
a french accent - I think it's mostly put-on, I mean
she's been here what, 5 years now                 but

he's always petting me when she's around
as if to sympathize, "so she's incredible, don't feel bad"
and I swore yesterday he gave me  the
"i'm not attracted to her" look

The thing isn't that she's french, and blonde, and thin
and the thing isn't that he sees it
The thing is that I haven't been accessible lately
(pretending to be asleep
not paying attention, really)

The thing isn't that I forgot how to fix what's broken
or that I don't know HOW
The thing that really bothers me is
I don't even think I want to try