i want to close my eyes and open them to when you were with me in the bitter cold playing staring contests with the brisk wind hitting us both and we’d laugh at each other when we’d make stupid scrunched up faces and then the tearing came next and of course you’d win. i’m terrible at games. you’d nestle up in my neck and tell me it’s okay but to **** it up cuz no one likes a sore loser and i’d reply with an “oh yeah?!” wearing a crazed face and then we’d both laugh..