When I was young, I would play with numbers more than the toys in my trunk. I would talk about science like it was the language if love. I would play in the dirt as if I knew I belonged there. When I was young, I had a sense of wonder.
When I got older, I left the numbers on the pages of my algebra textbook. I broke up with science and gravitated more towards English and poetry classes I stopped playing in the dirt and began yerning to live underneath it. When I got older, I wanted to **** myself.
When I get to where I'm going, The boys who dismissed me all those years ago will ask for my hand. My poetry will lay upon the pages of text books. Maybe I won't want to **** myself.
But that's part of getting older, isn't it? Moving on from things that made your heart sing? Is this what it means to be an adult? I envy younger versions of myself. They all had this way about them that would draw people to them. But I guess I lost my charm while I was breaking my own bones.