i watched as she picked up her shadow like a baby and rocked it i didn't understand like a black lab laid down by the front door for 20 years, waiting to be seen, touched, it submitted with a low sigh. "The heart of darkness isn't darkness", she said to the wallpaper, glancing up from her bundle, "the heart of darkness is authenticity, the heart of authenticity is love". she didn't speak after that the moment was not for me and i was suddenly an intruder. Quietly, i stood up and slid away.