A long wet hot summer Like rapid waves of grey and blue Brushing off the residue Forming around the crevice of my lips All of a sudden feeling new arms New limbs.
Like that feeling they talk about In the songs that you sing along to While the young boys strum imaginary guitars And the girls clad themselves in heart eyed Daisy shapes And we long for that feeling That crashing up and down feeling Of what it is to fall in love.
I suppose its true I've had it more than a handful of times Briskly walking the other way When I had outgrown my lover One eye ahead And one eye back Because I was that girl With heart eyed daisy shapes Believing all of her self worth and value Was indicated and preserved Like all the gold and silver Perhaps some bronze too That lines the walls of my Alabama Childhood room.
I'm a grown woman now Though I still feel very much like a child At times Kicking and screaming Through an embryo swan like dive Befriending and acknowledging all of my sides And traipsing around trying to remember Gratitude. Choice. Presence. Sincerity. Resilience.
That crashing up and Crashing down Its a feeling we long for I see it in others I've seen it in myself I wonder when it will find me again And when I will let it.