sometimes i see you in my dreams
this could be seen as painful
for i will never have such a time with you
in reality.

but maybe we should all look at this as a blessing

when i see you there are no fights
i am not nervous
and we both seem to forget the hate we have
the anger we have
the sadness
regret
towards one another

it is peaceful
merely two people crossing paths once again

we are polite
and curious
and we listen to one another

so maybe when i see you in my dreams
i should treat it as a loved one from the grave

although you are very much living
all the love we had was dead now

i will be content with only seeing you
in my dreams
in fact - i’ll look at it as a blessing

better to see you
in a pure figment if my love for you
to not see you at all

or to see you
with anger stricken on your face
from the very sight of me

without
the pain in my stomach and forever lump
in my throat

we can just be
just
be
around each other

i suppose it is better
than nothing at all