Have you ever felt alone?
The bare minimum isn't enough?
Like you're breathing for no special reason?
Do you take what you can get?
Do you shut up with the fear of losing it all?
Have you lied to pretend that it truly is whatever?
Like you aren't surprised by the outcome?
I have.
I feel like this everyday.
I am tired,
I am exhausted.
That's why I'm a ****.
Today isn't yesterday,
Or four years ago,
Six years ago,
Eight, nine, ten,
Eleven years ago.
Today is today and you may think I don't deserve respect
Which is why I'm a ****.
Confuse who I am today for a dumb *******,
I'll be the biggest **** you have ever met.
But there is someone out there,
Watching and keeping tabs.
Someone that sees I'm drowning,
Dying because I can't handle this on my own.
Where are you?
Who are you?
If you notice someone dying do you watch?
Do you walk away?
Or do you show yourself?
Do you let resentment go and find the good in people?
I am washed ashore,
Dying for air but missing the water that surrounded me.
I am a fish that wants to be loved,
Admired in a tank filled with your love.
Whoever you are,
I need you.
I've needed people and things before,
Most of my life I have depended on these things
To make it through,
To make it matter in anyway.
Now I need it to live,
To make it seem worthwhile.