Have you ever just back and thought about your journey of life?
Beginning from the day you were born to the current time
The ups and downs of the years gone by
The struggles and happiness of your hopes and dreams
From the first day of school
Your first dance
The first kiss
The first heartbreak
The first time you had to say goodbye
To a loved one who was always by your side
The first time you got drunk with your best friends after homecoming or prom
Graduation day that you never thought would come
Finally make it to college (sometimes you never thought would happen)
Never actually liking the “college life” and saying **** it
I wanted to be a dancer my whole life
Training for years but my future didn’t look bright
I taught in studios and been on stage
Dancing and singing my life away
I always thought this is where I would spend my life
But those plans didn’t work out so right

Fast forward to my early 20’s when I thought I was in love with an incredible man
As I mentioned before I was sexually abused but blinded my “love” for many years
Being shamed for being to fat when I weighed 110 pounds if that
Never felt wanted by him
I just wanted my life back

I began to now self inflict harm to myself to release the anger I was feeling from him
He broke up with me many times and said we were just “friends with benefits “ one last time.
We worked together one last time for the annual fair on the last night
A group of us were walking around and he disappeared for a group of girls he had found
Thank God bc best friend was there with me
He sat with me for hours since he was worried about me and what  I would do

That’s the day my best friend kissed me for the first time
Oh man did the butterflies wiggle around
I never thought him and I would be a thing
He was always on the side of the stage watching in the wings

A short couple months later we went to Atlantic City for the night
He looked at me and asked me if a great time
I relied yes it was a lot of fun he smiled and said but it was “perfect “
That was the moment he got down on one knee and said “will you marry me”
That’s the moment when my my life had changed.

Not long after that my dad got very sick and it was a very long journey from then on...
I didn’t know if my dad would make my wedding or even walk me down the aisle.
He did make my wedding, he couldn’t walk, but he was in a wheelchair by my side going down the aisle with me

That day was the happiest day so far
Married life is nothing but amazing
Even the struggles of daily life I wouldn’t have it any other way

My dad took a turn for the worst and passed away
I miss him so much everyday

My mom moved on and was getting remarried
The family of 9 now has split
We all were happy but was it too soon, for her to love on
Well funny thing now the wedding is called off

My husband and I are so much in love
Our plan for the future is to move down south

Now that I spilled out a lot in this writing
Let’s all sit back and think about how far we all have come in our
Crazy
   Loving
Happy
             Sad
Most amazing
       Thing called
                     LIFE