In a need to start afresh,
I washed my sleep and sheets away,
Changed the pillow covers
To have her smell again.
In a need to make space,
I cleared the trash and my heart,
Made a mess of my room and mind,
I had to begin from the start.
In a need to soothe her,
I dimmed lights and vision,
Couldn't see far enough,
I was attempting a futile mission.
In a need to clear the air,
I lit incense but also a cigarette,
Makes no sense, but maybe
It'll put her burning eyes at rest.
In a need to satisfy,
I cooked to her appetite,
But sullen cutlery await,
Not one reached mouths taking a bite.
In a need to save the day,
I spent all of it,
On the one that never came,
Task by task, bit by bit.