the cold weather and my friends were never in the same place
i coexisted between the two and forgot what each of them felt like
for i was among both
but understood neither

the nights of caving in on hot chocolate stained sheets
and lights flickering out my window
gave the chance to see me as i am
and as i could be tomorrow

tired
searching

the lights flickered again tonight
as i changed the sheets to the bed

and for once
i wish it were’t my choice between them