And I’ve realized the time,
Like suddenly the light in your eyes is blinding
And here we stand wondering why we are in such similar places at such similar times and yet so far from each others hearts
And I stand on your balcony wondering in what timeline we align like a thousand stars shooting at the same time it was never meant to be
And I wonder about you
And about me
And about love
And being free
And maybe some day in some alternate universe we can shine as we shoot across the sky with our trails entertwined
But I know this dream of mine must stay trapped inside my mind because I have too many questions
And you seem to know the answers
Because you always do
And I’ve tried my hardest to keep this heart of mine under lock and key
But we’re approaching the one year anniversary of when my life fell to pieces
And your cornerstone kept me, me
And in some ways I thank you for that,
In others I am not so sure,
Because nature abhors a vacume and I find myself emotionally unavailable ninety nine percent of the time,
You called my bluff and I ran out of cards,
Uno
As I felt for most of my life and I have accepted my lack of acceptance of the fact that I may never find the right one
I may settle and I may be nothing more than okay
But right now okay seems a far away feeling that I hope I can feel one day
One day but that day may not be anytime close to today
And that is where the trouble comes
When a girl offers a brief facade of love I can hide behind for just one night
And I accept because Im weak
I dont do well alone, nor do I fair well with another
It’s a balancing act between the facts and maintaining the fiction I tell myself that I can hold you down
So here we are waiting for shooting stars so that I may wish us together and you wish us apart
So tell me where the line was drawn
Because I’ve never been good with social ques
Is it when you kissed me and I kissed you
Is it the time we found ourselves the last ones awake and we picked at each others minds until we found the deep parts we don’t let people inside
Maybe
It’s not for me to say
Maybe I was just born this way
Unable to keep a straight face
So don’t ask me how I feel about seeing you every day
Stay happy
But stay away