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Ritjimwa 3mily Dimka
Poems
Oct 2017
The Challenge (Day 4)
THE FOIL
He hurt me
The pain was bad
So bad it was excruciating and left me wanting to return him the favor
Even if it was at least a figment of all the pain he had caused this frail heart
So I started to scheme
I began to plot and I gave it a theme
A theme of revenge
I would reverse time, I planned
I would take him back to 1983
Where I happened at the Russian Vostok Station
I called subterfuge
Asking her to be my refuge
On this chivalry quest
I welcomed him back into my home
And did all that I had done when I had loved him
Only this time I did even more
With a burning desire his heart to freeze
This surely my pain would ease
I thought to myself
After all, that’s what he had done to mine
So I acted like all was fine
Better than it had ever been
I cooked him dinner
A three course every time
I never asked him for flowers or for a dime
I wasn't fazed when he stayed out too late
I just went about pretending to love him
And with such pretense came my fate
A fate once I came to understand I would love to hate
Days turned into weeks
And the weeks became months
It was just a game of revenge
Nothing was going to change my mind
I was a vulture, out to scavenge
Or so I presumed.
As time passed,
I didn’t have to make a conscious effort to pretend
I was slowly becoming all I was pretending to be
I gasped and fear gripped me at the realization
I was a creature of habit
Usain Bolt when it came to running in circles
Here I was back to where it all began
Back to doing that which had gotten this senseless heart broken
With every intent to please
The person whose carcass I had hoped on to feed
I was “She-lock”
I yearned for a pound of his flesh or maybe just a little more
But I had failed like I did the time before
I had become everything I was pretending to be
I had repeatedly caught myself sabotaging this mission
I waltz gleefully as I make his dinner
I find myself deserted by sleep on those nights he came home late from work
I had butterflies whenever I heard him call my name
I had lost once again
I, in desperate hope had fought another losing game
I had fallen, fallen not just so hard but this time I had fallen in too deep
How could I betray myself?
How could I let him defeat me once again?
I had fallen in love with him again
And sadly this time around, he was also stupidly in love with me.
All my plans have been trounced
I never planned to surrender but I have been shackled by the chains of love,
The only soft spot my heart has for his…
#roadtorecovery
#everythingipretendtobe
#realrawandaimple
#welearnasweteach
#writingright
#firesofr3d
Written by
Ritjimwa 3mily Dimka
Lagos/Abuja/Jos
(Lagos/Abuja/Jos)
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