You are gone. My eyes are blind to your body. My ears deafened to your voice, I am senseless. But refusing to accept My eyes and ears strain to find you In the darkness, The silence. Tears erupt from within me As though my Jugular has been Sliced by the shock That should’ve saved you. My shoulders begin to ache As my hands grasp for you And find nothing but air Intangible molecules bouncing and colliding To form matter that isn’t you. Like a newborn chick I imprint on Anything that moves Hoping maybe it will be you Or something, someone similar. I am lost without a map Left with nothing but time Not enough to bring you back Enough to think of you and Too much to fill the hole in my heart. A hole that has left me Tachycardic and anoxic Unable to take in a breath of life Under the weight of guilt from Stealing that which could’ve been yours— Should be yours. If only… If only I had caught you Before you fell. If only… If only we hadn’t fought. But you left me. You abandoned me. Like a baby you didn’t want A puppy that couldn’t be trained Why? I wanted to die I tried to leave But I failed, Because you are gone And I am not.