It's strange that one word


Negative


Can mean so much.

But I guess I don't feel
How I am supposed to feel
About the outcome.
Yes I am young
Yes we are not ready
But I was almost


Hopeful


Almost disappointed when I heard her say
"Well, it was completely negative."
There was a small part of me
That wanted the outcome to be


Positive


Even though I know you aren't ready
Don't want this now
I kind of did.
Kind of do.
Maybe it's the lack of love I feel
Maybe part of me thinks I will feel complete
Knowing I would do it different
Than those who raised me.
I know I would.
I would love it with all I have
And way more.
BUT one day we will be


Ready


And it will be our choice
And we will love it with all we have
And so much more.
Then I feel that I will finally feel


Complete.