I've only known you for 3 years There's so much you don't know Only scratching the surface Friendship pleasantries All I tell you are the pleasantries Sometimes the dark gets too much The past gets too deep And sometimes I lose myself in it I want to talk I want to be with you and forget But it's like my lips have sworn an oath And I don't know how Or where to start Worse How to deal with your reaction So despite our closeness I bear it all alone All the sad and ugly kept inside my stomach I don't know how to hide it at its peak When the eyebags are pools And I bleed from my fingertips When my body trembles And my lips are sore So I hide from you It's easier this way Easier to say my battery died And my charger broke Sometimes I raise a shaking finger To your contact on my phone Stare at the delete button But you're a good friend And I love you So I wait it out Untill I surpress everything from the time before you Untill I can smile and see you