This is ****** poetry

I am alone.

You are not here.

My lover is gone.

She abused me.

I still love her.

I fear the future.

I fear the past.

The present is beyond my control

I want her back

She will abuse me again

Is the abuse worth it

I want it to be

I don't know if it is

How long can love outweigh ignorance

Does it matter in the end

Does the pain make it worth it

Why is your attention so addicting

Your love is more destructive and addicting than any drug I've ever consumed

My life is in your hands

I need help

All of the above is true

This is a ****** poem