Your ethereal exterior
and eloquence pulled
me in, like melted sugar
until I was fully coated.

You gave me the attention
I was yearning for. You heard
my silent cries of frustration;
You know how it feels like to be hurt.

You healed me,
or so I thought.
You conditioned me
so I could be your guard.

Like a dog to its master,
I stayed by you faithfully;
Despite you being the trigger
of my anxiety.

Cause you're a beautiful chaos.
I was the loyal peacemaker.
You wreak havoc and I, your Apostolos,
will make everything better.

-m.b