I still have the Skype app on my phone
I hadn't used it since the 11th grade
But now it takes up my phone's memory
Just in case you might call

You know it's been what?
5 days? A week?
**** still *****

We hadn't even started
and here I am in this anguish

Maybe that's why it hurts

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream

Wow that really sinks it's teeth into my charred heart now doesn't it

I can smell you in my brain still
Feel my hand in your hair
your wide chest made my broad shoulders feel like elegant vines

you made me feel beautiful
makeup barely touches my face these days
every time i take the black stick and brush my eyelashes
i hear your voice
"Don't do it! You don't need it."

...

I just want to laugh with you again.
Funny - what I would give
to be in a hotel room
worried about my period
drinking Jack with a boy
that I've had a crush on since the 11th grade...

...

Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out

of my life?

This is why my heart feels like it is pumping tar
instead of blood.

I don't understand why this happened to me
why did "God" bless me with such a memorable month
only to pull it from underneath me?

I am like a toddler that gains the momentum to walk
only to trip on my own feet
and barrel head first into a coffee table.

But worse-off
I didn't end up with a harry potter scar
but a physical pain in my chest
made up by a feeling... in my head?

THIS is why I think I'm crazy-
Because how could any sane person
fall in love
with someone
she saw for a month
mostly through a computer screen?

Is it?

Is it possible

To fall in love

In one night

In La Crosse, WI

in a hotel room

a walk down a torn up road

a makeout at a random bar

catching a cab

falling asleep

and waking up

in the same position

because

it

felt

like

home.



is it? is it possible?