I've got pockets full of ******* and hard and swollen eyes. I want more than I have found, I need something real and new and warm. I got plans for leaving, but I can't go without you. I want a world of fire. I need you to have me with you. I need this journey, for once- once in this hollow life- I need this to not be alone. I want you forever with me, like we promised to. I love you like identity, I can't be me without you anymore. I don't know when it happened, love. I can't do it anymore. Climb these mountains of doubt with me, because I don't know if I like me anymore. I know I'm better with you, but you're not around, dear. I think I want to be gone and away. I think It should be me that isn't here. I want you to reassure me. I just want you near.
I remember sneaking out as teenagers, hoping you'd hold my hand. I remember not asking you to dance with me. I remember wishing you had. I remember wanting you. I recall being scared to death.
I'm a real piece of garbage without you. I'm worse than I'll ever be. I'm broken down and beaten, haunted by the demons you keep at bay. I ******* hate it, baby. Please look at me like I'm not damaged, like you always do. Convince me I'm repaired. I need to be here with you.