You lover her, but don't want to fall in love with her.
Ridiculous isn't it , then again its also human of you.
Thinking you're good enough for her on one side.
Thinking she'd be better off without you on the other.

Loving can be painful.
Falling in love can be heart wrenching.
Trying not to love can be problematic, even disastrous.

Still. its up to you to pick the pain you want to live with.
Or the pain you want to live without.